The culture of positivity is a threat against my recovery. Positivity is not about the experience of positive emotions and how to cultivate them in a healthy way. Rather this positivity is a way of avoiding the pain of living by covering it and pretending it doesn’t matter. I was never more stuck…
Emotions have always been tricky for me. I feel them deeply; I just didn’t learn how to express them. When I get overwhelmed by an unexpressed emotion I feel it in the pit of my stomach. I spend a lot of time barfing. If I could only learn to express the rage churning deep inside me in a way that would not bring harm to me or others….perhaps, then I would begin to heal. Meanwhile, I am hopeful that someday my melancholy, that black anger of sadness, will be relived. That day could be today.
New research shows that patients with fibromyalgia have hypersensitivity to non-painful events based on images of the patients’ brains, which show reduced activation in primary sensory regions and increased activation in sensory integration areas. Findings published in Arthritis &…
I lay in a trance with my eyes closed, ears listening, and body sensing the vibrations. I was in the middle of a meditative singing bowl class. Every vibration pierced me; some swept by while others overwhelmed. The sheer amount of sounds relaxed as well as stimulated me.
“Through meditation you learn that you don’t have to protect, you don’t have to defend, you don’t have to make your point, you don’t have to win, you don’t have to lose… you just interact; you communicate with situations as they arise.”—David Nichtern (via abiding-in-peace)
'In Mahayana Buddhism, the open, wakeful emptiness of awareness is our absolute nature. Our original nature is changeless, unconditioned, timeless and pure. When we bring this awareness to the relative world of form, love awakens. We meet the ever-changing stream of life - this living, dying,…
“Conditions are never perfect. ‘Someday’ is a disease that will take your dreams to the grave with you. If it’s important to you and you want to do it ‘eventually’, just do it and correct the course along the way.”—Tim Ferriss (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
“Anybody can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within everybody’s power and is not easy.”—Aristotle (via psych-facts)
Studying, Meditating, Attending Satsang, Avoiding Bad Company:
"So to develop this love, we must first obey His commandments, second weed out all imperfections, and third devote time to the spiritual practices. You should also have the company of somebody who just reminds you of your ideal. Avoid the company of all others in whose society you are attached to the world or forget Him. If you cannot have the company of those who can help you to remember Him, then it is better to live alone. Live with the Masters speaking through books, through the scriptures. You will be better off. A further symbol that in your love you are drawing closer to Him, is that you will feel separation. You will hanker to see Him. When you hear about Him, your heart will become full and tears will roll down from your cheeks. These are the symptoms to show that the fruit is ripening. These things are the blossoms. Ultimately, when the fruit comes, you are for the Master, and the Master is for you. These are the steps and we have now to judge where we stand."
”—Studying, Meditating, Attending Satsang, Avoiding Bad Company, by Kirpal Singh, from, Morning Talks, published by Ruhani Satsang USA (via santmat)
Self-cherishing is thinking that we are more important than others and develops from the belief that the self that we identify with is inherently real. The mind of self-cherishing is the most harmful mind because it makes us commit negative actions out of selfishness. It is also a wrong awareness…
“The basic fact about human existence is not that it is a tragedy, but that it is a bore. It is not so much a war as an endless standing in line. The objection to it is not that it is predominantly painful, but that it is lacking in sense.”—Henry Louis Mencken (via itsquoted)
As I approached Step 2, which is about coming to believe in a power greater than me, I realized that the farthest I could imagine was a slightly better version of me. I came to believe that a better self was possible. I don’t speak of a higher power rather I speak of a higher Todd – A Todd greater than the Todd I am today.
“As long as the existence of space and
as long as the existence of the world,
that long let my existence be
devoted to the world’s sorrows.
Whatever the sorrow of the world,
may all that ripen in me;
and may the world be
comforted by the glorious Bodhisattvas.”—Shantideva, Indian Buddhist Poet-Saint (via modernshxmxn)
“Everybody fears being struck by a rod, life being dear to all. Therefore, knowing this, feeling for others as for yourself, do not kill others or cause others to kill.”—The Dhammapada - Chapter 10 (The Rod), Verse 2
The great thing about a healthy recovery program is that you get to come as you are - atheism and all. If you don’t believe in god, so what neither do I and nor do I care to at this point in my life. I don’t care to argue about it either. What you believe about such things is entirely up to you in…
“If you wish to be happy, no one can stop you. Similarly, if you wish to be free, no one can stop you. In fact the universe encourages and supports your freedom. Why? Because to be happy and free is your natural state.
Don’t try to change the world. First, change yourself or rather, your self-perception, and you find the world automatically corresponding to the level of your understanding.
You will find that it has always been you who set the pace and depth of your experience by recognising and honouring your true nature.”—Mooji (via christ-consciousness)
You may be familiar with the phrase, “Know Yourself,” that was etched above the threshold of certain ancient temples. The ancients seem to reminding us that we must first know who we really are – not who we think we are or what others have told us – but, who we really are from the inside out if we…
I’m not saying what you believe is wrong. I don’t know that. I don’t possess that level of wisdom. I’m just suggesting that you don’t let the language of the program limit you into believing something that isn’t necessarily true for you. More importantly, don’t let the language of the program keep you from giving it your all because of your kneejerk reactions to other people’s spiritual or religious beliefs. This program is about you. So make it about you.
Despite the Christian language of the typical 12 Step program you don’t need to believe in god for the program to work. You do need to believe in yourself. If you don’t, which is part of the problem for most of us when we crawl into these rooms, then this is the place to start. I am convinced that…